When say that I had the most wonderful day today, I am being sincere. Woke up positive, got out walking on a glorious sunny Saturday, tried a new Russian restaurant for lunch, window shopped, spoke at length with the lovely Svetlana of Svetlana Herbs – and got some great heath advice, on to the gym, after dinner cupcake treats for myself and a friend, then cooked a delicious dinner. All the way home I interacted with so many positive, funny and just plain wonderful people on the street. I even got an offer for a free ticket to a rock concert by some kids who had an extra. How much fun is that? My day was full of flavor.
Then I sat down with my computer and checked email.
At this moment, I feel defeated and simply want to give up. It doesn’t bother me so much to have my work critiqued or analyzed. I welcome that. It would be ridiculous to say that I know everything and there is nothing else to learn. But when a person whose project you’ve thrown your heart and soul into and at your own expense because you believe in the potential of the work, the idea, the long-term value, or whatever you want to label it, has nothing but criticism, is inflexible, and is absolutely ungrateful, I just feel like giving up. I think a closer description would be “useless” or “wasting my time” or “fighting a losing battle” or “talking to a brick wall.” All of those apply.
Sometimes, you just have to let go. In fact I am. At this moment, even at the detriment of my professional life, I have to consider my happiness and health. There are just some people who wear you out and I have reached my breaking point. I am walking away. Nicely. Professionally. But absolutely.
I always aim to please. Try to do the right thing in every situation and with every person. I often make mistakes which I immediately acknowledge and correct. However, when the right thing, the right solution and good or great work isn’t enough, I realize, I can go no further.